(And when I found you, I found me; you're the only one I see)
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So many things happened!!
Well firstly I just ended my 10-day promoter job at Shaw!!!!!!!!! It was nice to see Emi my friend and now Emi my colleague hehehehe everyday for the past 10 days!
It wasn't that nice standing for the majority of the day selling things to people we came across some really $%^&* people!! But I'm glad I stuck it out
Besides it showed me who my true friends are, who understand that the job requires time and energy, and they don't look down on me and think it's 'oh so surprising' that I went to get this job. So thank you pallies! And Tim Jane Daryl and Jia for coming down to visit even though you guys didn't buy anything
There was also Jane's birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Jane, Amelia, Tim and I had a lovely intimate and cosy dinner celebration after Friday's lyrical jazz at a pizza place in Chijmes!
Lovely company with the people I hold most dearly and closely to my heart, catching up, silly jokes, awesome food, romantic place hehehe = They make me so happy to be alive!
It's also nice planning things with Chan's Min! 6 years pallies you knowwwwwwwwww hahaha.
I like how we both don't get overly stressed and anxious because we both trust that despite late replies (hee hee) and hectic schedules, we'll still get things done I'm not scared of what she'll say, if she'll get upset if I suggest something And that when something we planned doesn't follow through, we won't get upset! (well our plan was originally supposed to be at Timbre but it got too crowded and we couldn't make reservations) And somehow despite that, our second very impromptu plan will turn out alright!
Oh there was also a class celebration for her
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Then there was ANDREW BIRD! With Emi! It was so awesome he is super quirky and eccentric I love every minute and he's so talented! (plus good looking)
Well now that the job is over! I'm going to knit, cook, wait for Jane to finish Provence to look for another job, dance dance dance, meet up with people, BTT (!!), prepare for Lent.......
Begining to find I'm low on time Floating on the ocean in a storm The shore is gone And the end has drowned But hope only shines The brighter in the night
Oh, fighting to keep afloat I'm on a sinking boat Fighting to keep afloat
Still trying to find a purpose
But someone told me that happiness sometimes, is not a feeling, it's a choice. And I want to choose to be happy and see the beauty in the littlest things
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What's been happening so far:
Open House + Restless VI video! It was nice laughing at our silly mistakes and I was very proud of my pallies when the camera zoomed in on them!
Ballet on Monday, Ballroom on Tuesday, Contemp on Thursday, Lyrical Jazz on Friday I'm glad Dance is now a very big part of my days!
Signed up for BTT with Emi and Amelia! Haha I hope we all pass on the first round
L4D hahahaha with Emi Amelia and Tim, Daryl Jia Abel! Killing zombies (with axe) is strangely fun
Bus ride with Amelia was nice. It was nice knowing that there is someone who could understand what I'm going through♥
Jasmine left an incredibly sweet msg and I realised that I miss her so much! ♥ As well as the rest of the class, and school. I miss having a routine (even though when I had a routine I complained that it was mundane and boring.....) It felt good to at least have something to work hard for. Whereas now it's like I can't see beyond my present. I don't know what the next day holds, or what I'm working towards.
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But I guess, through it all, I learn that being unemployed (sob what a sad term to use) frictionally HAHA, I have more time to spend with my friends I learn to treasure the time and moments I spend with my friends who are employed I saw how lovely and caring my friends are, and I realised who are the ones whom I will keep in touch with for a very very long time
I thank God for everything.
Plus! I have so much more time to read and read and read and watch TV series
Here's what I've read and seen while bumming around:
The Unbearable Lightness of Being (BEST. BOOK. EVER. CANNOT. DIE. WITHOUT. READING. THIS) The Wild Things (I can't wait for the movieeeeeee) Catch 22 The Consolations of Philosophy How I Became Stupid Have A Little Faith An Intimate History of Humanity The Chronicles of Narnia The Great Gatsby 1984 Everything Is Illuminated Don Quixote The Iliad Blink
Pushing Daisies What I Like About You HAHA Friends House The Office
Wow it looks like I have no life at all haha
And I've been listening to Evermore's Real Life album. And every song applies to aspects of my life. That really helped
Perhaps when we find ourselves wanting everything, it is because w are dangerously close to wanting nothing.
Is this what finding yourself means?
I don't know what I'm supposed to do, or where I'm supposed to go.
Packing bread at Provence definitely wasn't for me; I felt suffocated and trapped there, like I could be doing something more meaningful rather than serving spoiled people bread.
So I'm now volunteering at SPCA, and AWWA but it's kind of sucky to see people around you working in jobs they actually enjoy or will benefit them in the future and actually getting paid for it.
I feel...left behind. Like everyone else has already found a place where they belong and are moving on, while I'm still testing the waters, not knowing where to go. Everyone's got their future planned out, people are getting flashy medical attachments, jobs that pay $10 an hour, and...I can't even keep a simple job like packing bread.
And some people don't have to do anything, and still have these wonderful opportunities simply handed to them.
Ned: You're the only one for me. Chuck: I know you feel that now, but there are things you want, there's things we both want. Ned: So? Everyone wants stuff. We wake up everyday with a list of wishes a mile long and maybe we spend our lives trying to make those wishes come true, but just because we want them doesn't mean we need them to be happy. Chuck: What do you need to be happy? Ned: You.
- Pushing Daisies
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I have yet to do a 2010 post yet! Well 2009 was SYF, Restless, A Levels, figuring out who your true friends are and who can be trusted, getting closer to God everyday, Prom, finding out what pure and simple love is, no more Chinese (!!!), no more PW (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!), growing up (hopefully)
Thank you for showing me and teaching me what true friendship is all about, and for being my pillars of strength, I really thank God for you guys
2009 was also about finding out more and falling more in love with Dance, especially in AC Dance; I don't think I would ever forget the SYF experience: dancing with broken limbs, overcoming heartbreaks together, bonding with your dance partner, finding (and trying to dance out) our different stories, As well as Restless: bonding with the juniors, dancing as One AC Dance, costumes mishaps, super turbo quick changes backstage (!!!), the rush the hustle and bustle, performing, theatre week, make up queues....
And A Levels; Void Deck, Starbucks, Coffee Bean studying Awesome dinners, growing closer to friends, stressing out every once in a while, studying Lit (which I strangely miss now...???), encouragement in subtle ways.......
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So my holiday plans now are Ballroom, Lyrical Jazz, Ballet, and Contemp SPCA Special Needs School Read many many many books Driver's license!
And hopefully learn how to bake and knit HAHA (domestic goddess) Decided not to work anymore because I realised I have my entire life after Uni to work my butt off
I hope that in 2010 I will find who I really want to be, and that I will keep in touch with friends, no matter how near or far they may be!
I love the simplicity of the lifestyle there, and the people, the food, and the culture. And! THERE WERE SO MANY VESPAS! I wish I had one.....
My parents and I spent most of the trip walking from one place to the next, so I had lots of time to think about things that were bothering me, appreciate what I have, and to soak up the beauty that is Vietnam!
It was really lovely spending time (much needed) with my family, and spending time (much much needed) reflecting and planning for the future. Plus, it wasn't a tour package which was awesome because tour packages only bring you to the touristy and commercial areas so you don't get to appreciate the true essence of the country
Okay here are the most memorable things about the trip!
1. THE TRAFFIC. It was killer!! There were honks every 2 seconds and it was super chaotic, there were motorcycles and cars coming in from all directions, from everywhere! It was really thrilling to cross the road and the locals do it with such ease and calmness I was really blown away haha.
2. VIETNAMESE COFFEE. I tried it for the first time in my life in this really little stall along the road and it was mind-blowingly awesome! I had one everyday I was there
3. THE FOOD. My parents and I decided to do away with the restaurants and to have all three meals everyday at those small roadside places and everything was so yummy!! And there's something really cosy and homely about sitting on really short stools by the roadside, eating
4. ST JOSEPH'S CATHEDRAL. We attended the mass there on Sunday, and it was so beautiful. The entire mass was in Vietnamese but we were still able to follow it, which was really lovely The songs they sang - even though I couldn't understand - were so beautiful, and touching.
5. THE PEOPLE. They were so friendly and unassuming, even though there was a language barrier And the girls there were really pretty
6. BOBBY CHINN'S RESTAURANT Well we went there for dinner on the last day, because 1) it's Bobby Chinn!!! (handsome man) 2) it's Bobby Chinn!!! (awesome cook) I love the decor and the food, and the waiters, and we caught a glimpse of him but we didn't dare to approach him haha.
7. MINH'S JAZZ CLUB Jazz music, nice cocktail, family time....what could be more magical?
8. HALONG BAY. We spent overnight at a river cruise! And the scenery was really breathtaking. It was so tranquil, and serene, and when you're up on the deck, with the wind blowing and the vast space before you.......it's a really indescribable feeling! you feel so small, so much so that your mere existence seems like a miracle (I sound like I'm sprouting nonsense)
And...there's more but I'm too lazy to type hehehe.
I guess I learn that it's the little things that matter: Noodles sold by the roadside beats those offered in fancy restaurants; coffee brewed in small unknown cafes beat those in commercialised, westernized places; a smile from a friendly local; beautiful hymns sung in a language you don't understand but still they manage to touch you; listening to music and sharing with your family......
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Now it's back to reality! I can't wait to dance again, and to start volunteer work, take up knitting, read more books, spend time with loved ones, and to call up childcare centres to look for a job I hope my really long holiday turns out to be really fulfilling.
